Last night I had a student ask me this question:

“How do you know what God wants you to do?”

My first response was that he had little clue to how deep that question really was. After initially not really having a clue on where I was going to go with a response, God placed the following on my heart:

“I believe In the beginning we were made in God’s image and when Christ died we became a part of Him. And since we are a part of Him, I believe in the line, “what it is in us, flows through us.” I believe we learn God’s plan for us through our constant learning of life. We learn who we are, what makes us tick, our passions, the things that hurt us, the things that excite us. In this, we pray over each situation and God uses our past to speak into our current and into our future. So how do we decipher what is “us” and what is God? Carefully. Prayerfully. Faithfully. And Hopefully. Sometimes we will get it perfectly right. Other times, we will make the wrong decision. It’s in those moments that it all becomes the same. We still simply come before God, needing Him to direct us on our next decision. It’s a giving of your own complete desire…and asking Him to give you His desire in your heart, so that you can seek that, rather than your own. The truth is, I’m a selfish person. You’re selfish as well. We all are. However, you cannot afford to be selfish in these moments. Pray for that type of wisdom. The type of wisdom that creates a difference. The type that brings forth change, and most importantly, a wisdom that will deliver a beauty of who God is to our hearts so it can be delivered through us.”

The truth is, after I sent him the eight texts that were filled with this response, I had little clue to what I said.
It was as if the words came out of my mouth without my prior knowledge of any of them.
This morning I decided I was to revisit the texts that I sent.
That’s when God decided to speak in completely clarity to me.
The texts that I had sent the prior evening were not truly even directed towards the student. While the message benefited him in his seeking of God’s truth, God’s true intentions for those texts were for me.
I am the one that is having issues following God’s plan over my own.
I’m the one that sucks.
I’m the one that constantly chooses TV over the Bible.
Music over praying.
Being bitter, rather than being loving.
I’m the one that needs direction.

Those are the words that God decided were appropriate for me to slap myself in the face with.
Thoughts?

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